all hope abandoned
I feared it would happen. I knew it would happen.
IL called me at four o'clock, this morning, and told me she and one of her bandmates are now in love with each other.
"I've been in love with you since February," I told her.
I am very happy for her. But I also feel sick and lost and hopeless. I wish there was a way to switch everything off and not think about anything or feel anything for anyone.
Being human is a whole goddamn lot of trouble.