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2006-10-10
quiet and further away


I never should have given my mother my work phone number. I think she finds the answering machine in secret motel to be disquieting. She left a message in my voice mail today. I never did return her last call nearly two months ago. I do not look forward to talking with her--or rather, listening to her. I don't want to hear about her latest delusions. And I certainly don't want to hear anything about my grandmother's death.

I dread hearing the voice of any of my blood-relateds. It's always a doom voice that makes me want to curl up in a dark corner and drink myself quiet and further away.



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